So I think I made the deadline for the first thingy on Project Designer by so YAY!

Sleep soon...

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My clubs, woo hoo!!

I am part of marker club, woooo!! <3

I also got lazy and forgot what happened last month except DANA IS THE GREATEST BESTEST FRIEND EVER!!!!!

I will start with what I thought would be the last all nighter of my 4th semester at Otis.

So. I suppose I was tired. I can barely remember anything about that weekend. Hehe. Oh yeah.... The show. I think. So then.... Monday was all about patterndrafting. I remember it being quite enjoyable. I think I have pics of Dana trying to get into the baby shirt I made. Hehehehe. That will forever make me giggle every time I think about it. Hehehehe. Tuesday was patterndrafting's last class. It was nice. It was brief. I think I was tired. Yeah. So I stayed later with Em because we work slow. Hahaha. It was nice (= Then we went home to Westchester area from downtown. We stopped by the art supply store to pick up a few more supplies. We needed to be ready. This was it. It was gonna make or break our sophomore year. XDDDDD

She didn't even go home that afternoon or night. Haha... she got right on it, and I kinda just wasted time for a bit. I made vegetable curry It was gooood. Haha. It was spicy, but I forgot to add more, so it wasn't too bad. I put carrots, potatoes, onion, cauliflower, broccoli, and mushrooms in it It was yummy!! Em and I ate We had leftovers, and I didn't have time to clean up after. Hehehe. It'll come back later. So then after that, I guess I started hw. >_< Next time, I'll know better!!

So we were up all night, didn't even think of sleep. It was pretty bad >_< I didn't actually get to the flats till early in the morning. In fact, I took a nap in the car on the way to school, with only three sort of finished flats. Yeah. I wouldn't have passed if people-- Lindsey, Jenny, Cindy, and Eva help me cut and rubber cement the rest of the flats in the tiny bit of time we had. Oh God. It was bad >_< I didn't even have the second flat to one of the pants, cause it stuck to the back of one of the other illustrations.

And fuck. Dad got up and said some shit about me being like this (on the fucking comp at 3 fucking 30 in the morning) when I was away. What the fuck. I DON'T FUCKING SLEEP BECAUSE OF FUCKING HW WHEN I AM IN FUCKING SCHOOL. Fuck. Pisses me off. I don't give a shit how hard they (parents) worked when they were in college. I was talking to Jesse last night about how much sleep he and his friends get. It's terrible how little sleep I get compared to them. Shit.

So the crit went well enough. It's embarassing how I was the last one, because we've all looked through the good ones >_< Kill me, kill me. Rose said I had too much lace, hahahahaha. Hahahahaha. God, I suck. She said, at least the silhouettes of my clothing I paired together fit. Well yeah... I had to adjust every freaking one of them to make them fit. I am smart (dumb) like that. Yeah. So then she went on to talk about time management and how that seemed to be the BIG problem for my class. Yeah. LOL. We just went through THE GREAT BIG EXAMPLE: me. )=> XDDDDDD She was really nice, though. I hope she wasn't thinking to herself, graaaar, will remember her, she is NOT prepared! -__-;;

So then... on a COMPLETE turnaround.... Tony says everyone passes design, and Suzy... SUZY SAYS I HAVE GREAT TALENT IN ILLUSTRATION AND *ACCUSES* ME OF BEING A PERFECTIONIST!!!!

Okay... I did NOT see that one coming. LOL <3 Suzy.

So other parts of the rollercoaster that was last week will come soon!!

Delerium- random songs

Three days till the END!!!!!

I had a great day, a great night, and I am having a great time! YAY!!!! I have struggled with depression and loneliness this past year, but school and hard work is coming to an end... I think I'm happy (=

I did very badly in textile's fabric identification test. But since I've done well in the past, I should be okay. Bye bye expected B+, though! LOL Sewing my skirt for my final went really really well. I started sewing at 12, and finished at 4:15. YAY!!!!! But I think, I will somehow crawl through and pass the class. WEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

So I was really tired Friday, but Em, Dana, and I went shopping!! Hahahaha... it was weird... we had time to do it! XDDD But we didn't really find a black bottom that we liked, so Em didn't get anything. I got two metal hair things to hold my hair -__-;; Dana bought a shirt and underwear. Hahaha (= Then Em came to the apartment and we decided to cut her hair! Hahahaha I know... we've been working so hard lately and been passing out early in the morning, getting up a few or couple hours later, really tired... I think we were going crazy. But it came out really cute! Hahahaha

So I barely did anything to my "The Circus Comes to Otis" shirt because I passed out on Em last night and then woke up really late today, haha. Then we had to go to The Beverly Hilton for the Fashion show! I put make up on in the car, haha. Em came with us, Jenny drove (as usual, hehe) and then we got there! And I finished cutting the raw hem of my skirt in the parking lot XDDDD... I am seriously SO ghetto. But then we all got to the dressing room and Jane talked to us, sophomore dressers and stuff. It was too funny, cause we all had the same shirt but we did different things to it, and we all looked goth. XDDDDD Then Jane took us all down to where we should walk to get out and also to get to the cafeteria. Hahahahaha. We passed by the pool, and it was too funny. The models were sitting around, tanning, and there was us, a bunch of goth looking nfreak art students, led by Jane, the mother of us allo. Bahahahah. I guess you had to be there -__-;;. But Westley was there! Sitting, on his phone.... acting and looking like a model -__-;; which he was! Hahahaha. It was funny, though

But yeah, it was great! I only had two changes so it was awesome. My model was beautiful! (of course)It was Em's first time dressing, so she was telling me "They're so loooong, Kristine, they can't be from the same world as us!" Hahahahahaha. XDDDDD But my second change.... OMG. Big blue pants, easy to put on, semi high heels, really easy to put on, and then.... leather top with corset detailing AND a train. So... the afternoon show, THREE girls helped me. It was so crazy! And I felt so bad because the laces were on tight, and we had to pull it over her head, and parts of her back got red marks -__-;; But she was great! So the second show, the super big event one, I just left the lacing as loose as it was after she took it off after the afternoon show. Then pulling it on her was much easier, and Jin helped me lace it, YAY!!! It was great We took pics together, hehe. I took a lot of pics! OMG =O Well, not as much as I wanted to -__-;; Ad I have the most terrible pics of the last part of the afternoon show -__-;; XDDDD The Cirque group was amazing!!! OMFG. Dominique Lemieux was there! I should have ambushed her! Like how I ambushed Nina Garcia! OMG Nina Garcia shook my hand because I stood beside her smiling like a crazed fan! XDDD I also shoulda taken a pic with Daniel Franco -___;; Gah!!!!! But it was all too awesome >_< OMG!!!! XDDD OMG OMG XDDDDD YAY! LOL I can't wait till next year WEEEEEEEE!!!!!

But yeah, that was incredibly exciting

PS.

I got home, roommates went to Taco Bell to get food, they got me soda, I was talking to Jesse on AIM, all happy, and didn't realize my roommates were fighting in their room till much later. -__-;; So I put on headphones and I am now listening to trance, all happy. I am so glad I am single! (= I think I'm getting over the ex (I haven't been around online much lately, and all the people I had windows open on AIM messaged me, except him. And I'm not upset! =O I totally forget about him, too, sometimes XDDDDD)

It is the 1st... I will be going home on the 12th. Someone kill me. -__-;; It has been a terrible terrible 1 1/2 years that I have been in this school. I am oh so tired. I have so much crap to get rid of and clean before I can go home. Not to mention the gazillion hw and finals to do. I am procrastinating as I type this. But damn it, I need a rest. Days have been blurring... I keep track of days by what project is due and how much stress is building up.

I hate that I have to dress again for the fashion show this Saturday. I could be adding details to my illustrations that would make a world of difference. Or getting ready for the pattern final. But ehhh... I suppose I have to get through this second week of pure death. -__-;; Final in my art hist class tomorrow. Why can't I just take tests like that instead of writing essays for half the grade? I suppose I must write the two papers, too. Damn it. At least I don't have to worry about Model drawing, Pattern drafting, and Textiles classes. I am stressing about studio, illustration and design, and well... I am worried about passing art hist because of the papers. Whhyyyyy? So anyway.... I think there's a meeting on Friday morning with the dressers. When we're supposed to have our finals. So. I am so doomed.

I don't care if this is an amazing show, or that it's at the Hilton in Beverly. I hate it. I don't want to do it. Fuck you for telling me that you don't have anyone else when I asked to be excused from it even though I know fucking well that TWO people in my section aren't dressing. I hate you because I just know that you are being spiteful because I asked, and obviously you don't think it's important enough. You don't even want to understand that I have been trapped, albeit by choice, in this hellish environment for more than a year straight and I am worn out. I just need to rest. I just fucking wanted to be home for my fucking birthday after not seeing my family for more than a fucking year.

When can I pack and clean? I don't understand how it will happen. I am getting mad as I think about it. Again.

Obviously, the only solution is to throw everything I own away.